This week I got news that most will take as bad. But there are some very good things about it. I may have cancer, but it’s a very non-aggressive, easily treatable type. We caught it early and have a solid treatment plan that should completely remove it. There are a few test results we’re waiting on but all-in-all my prognosis is good. What do I do with this new found kick in the pants? Cancer is supposed to be a life changing event that makes you re-evaluate everything and choose new directions. What direction do I want to take? How radical of a change? In what part(s) of my life? Is all this re-evaluating even the right thing to do? It does make me question a lot of things but honestly the biggest thing I want to rush out and do is some of the traveling I’ve been putting off. I want to go to Greece – visit the ancient ruins, sit on the beach, and just relax. I want to start crossing off the remaining US states that I haven’t yet been to – less than half are left but a few I’ve only been to for work or as a kid and I would like to have a “fun” memory of each. I would like to visit most of the continents: Antarctica might just be too cold but the rest all have many interesting possibilities. I want to keep having fun, always learn more, and contribute what I can to society. I am realizing that the details may not matter so much – I just need to keep climbing the tree of life.
There are so many ways to look at that. Don’t be sorry you did something yourself. Don’t feel sorry for someone else. Don’t dwell on the negative…. Right now I just want you to avoid telling me you’re sorry. I want to hear “hey – it’s going to be alright” or “you’re lucky”. Why, you ask?
Well, I was diagnosed on August 19 with breast cancer. We caught it early, it’s non-aggressive, it’s small, and it’s considered very treatable. Don’t feel sorry for me and don’t say you’re sorry. If I’m going to have cancer this is about as good as it gets. Think positive, help me plan for the future, and treat me like normal. And of course indulge my every whim and let me win every argument…. Just kidding. Mostly. Many of you want to help and I do appreciate that. Let me put your offers on hold as I am told help is most needed a few months into the treatment plan.
Thank you for your caring and for your support!
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